Why am I walking around in bright sunshine everyday yet feeling as though I’m surrounded by darkness? I know that I’m saved and that God loves me but sometimes it feels like the pain that I’m going through is so intense, that not even He can help me get out of it. I still go to church but really, I’m just going through the motions. I still sing but the my songs have no joy. I still smile on the outside yet I’m crying on the inside. I look around and see everyone else proclaiming that God blessed them with a new job or gave them a wife or did something miraculous. But Father God, where’s my miracle? Where is my breakthrough? Where is my deliverance from these trials that make me feel condemned to suffer? Where is my deliverance from these storms that threaten to turn my boat over and drown me in life’s turbulent seas?
These are the Hush-Hush trials.
Trials that are so heavy and burdensome that sometimes we feel as though we will lose hold of our own minds. These are the trials that even children of God will face from time to time. Burdens so heavy that its hard to get out of the bed in the morning.
These are the Hush-Hush trials.
Trials that so many of us go through yet never let anyone else know. What we don’t show, they won’t know. So I’ll keep Amening and smiling and acting like its alright while everyday it feels like another piece of me is slowly dying inside.
These are the Hush-Hush trials.
Feelings of being lonely, trapped, nowhere to turn, nowhere to hide, nowhere to escape! In utter desperation, late at night when no one else is looking, I fall to the floor and cry out once again to God. “Father God, please, please help me through this!”
Suddenly, through my tears I hear a voice say, “Remember Paul.” I’m so miserable that I can’t think about the Bible right now. What in the world does Paul have to do with my pain?
I continue to cry but part of my mind begins to wander to thoughts of Paul. What was that the Pastor was talking about a few weeks back? Didn’t Paul go through some kind of trial?
I reach for my Bible and begin to search the pages. Tears dripping down and staining page after page until I find what I was looking for:
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
That’s it! Paul was dealing with a trial of his own that was just as painful as mine and he pleaded with God to remove it just like I’ve been doing! But God told him that His grace was sufficient. If His grace was good enough for Paul then doesn’t it mean that its good enough for me? He said that His strength is made perfect in weakness. Oh God, you know that I’m feeling weak right now, you know that I’m feeling down and out. Please touch my heart right now, right here on this floor.
All of a sudden, the words exploded in my head. My grace is sufficient and My strength is made perfect in weakness. God’s grace comes alive when we realize that it is the undeserved favor of God. In our trials, God will show favor to us as we go through; even when we can’t feel Him, He is still right there by our side. But when you recognize that His strength means absolute and unlimited power, that means that no matter how bad my situation may be, my Father’s power will be able to overcome! And so, even when we go through our Hush-Hush trials, we still reach out to God and when we do, His power will rest on us to give us the peace to be in the storm and the strength to go through the storm and come out on the other side.
And so, even in my Hush-Hush trials, I will not give up and I will not give in. I will call on the Lord to be my strength and to be my song. I will call on God to be my strength and my shield. I will call on my Father in Heaven to be my dwelling place and refuge.
I will thank God for my Hush-Hush trial and will pray, sing, shout and dance that trial away.
Are you experiencing a Hush-Hush trial today? If so, reach out to God who is the only One that can reach into your darkness and pull you back into the marvelous light.
The Hush-Hush Trials
These are the Hush-Hush trials.
These are the Hush-Hush trials.
Trials that are so heavy and burdensome that sometimes we feel as though we will lose hold of our own minds. These are the trials that even children of God will face from time to time. Burdens so heavy that its hard to get out of the bed in the morning.
These are the Hush-Hush trials.
Trials that so many of us go through yet never let anyone else know. What we don’t show, they won’t know. So I’ll keep Amening and smiling and acting like its alright while everyday it feels like another piece of me is slowly dying inside.
These are the Hush-Hush trials.
Feelings of being lonely, trapped, nowhere to turn, nowhere to hide, nowhere to escape! In utter desperation, late at night when no one else is looking, I fall to the floor and cry out once again to God. “Father God, please, please help me through this!”
Suddenly, through my tears I hear a voice say, “Remember Paul.” I’m so miserable that I can’t think about the Bible right now. What in the world does Paul have to do with my pain?
I continue to cry but part of my mind begins to wander to thoughts of Paul. What was that the Pastor was talking about a few weeks back? Didn’t Paul go through some kind of trial?
I reach for my Bible and begin to search the pages. Tears dripping down and staining page after page until I find what I was looking for:
2 Corinthians 12:9
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
That’s it! Paul was dealing with a trial of his own that was just as painful as mine and he pleaded with God to remove it just like I’ve been doing! But God told him that His grace was sufficient. If His grace was good enough for Paul then doesn’t it mean that its good enough for me? He said that His strength is made perfect in weakness. Oh God, you know that I’m feeling weak right now, you know that I’m feeling down and out. Please touch my heart right now, right here on this floor.
All of a sudden, the words exploded in my head. My grace is sufficient and My strength is made perfect in weakness. God’s grace comes alive when we realize that it is the undeserved favor of God. In our trials, God will show favor to us as we go through; even when we can’t feel Him, He is still right there by our side. But when you recognize that His strength means absolute and unlimited power, that means that no matter how bad my situation may be, my Father’s power will be able to overcome! And so, even when we go through our Hush-Hush trials, we still reach out to God and when we do, His power will rest on us to give us the peace to be in the storm and the strength to go through the storm and come out on the other side.
And so, even in my Hush-Hush trials, I will not give up and I will not give in. I will call on the Lord to be my strength and to be my song. I will call on God to be my strength and my shield. I will call on my Father in Heaven to be my dwelling place and refuge.
I will thank God for my Hush-Hush trial and will pray, sing, shout and dance that trial away.
Are you experiencing a Hush-Hush trial today? If so, reach out to God who is the only One that can reach into your darkness and pull you back into the marvelous light.